More than just an accountant

Why do I take up this venture? I've asked myself. Since, I am looking for something to work on which could potentially replace my day job and this one is practically 'capital-free' and best still 'risk-free' (if I am doing this part-time whilst still keeping my day job), so why not? A lingual challenge to me. Not commonly prevalent in the market, I suppose. If that's the reality, then a niche is what I'm eyeing. As long as the subject is something I have interest in, hopefully the work that comes with it would not discourage me. 'If you want to be extraordinary, you have to do something extraordinary that an ordinary person won't do'. I could do this if I have faith.

Today is the day I will attempt on this venture. I wasn't that well-prepared. But, I have promised and I must deliver. My sister was looking forward to today and in fact, had cancelled another clashing activity just to make today happen. (How come the eunuch is more concerned than the emperor?) Actually, I had been doing my homework and do some research internet. But, with the limited time I have to do so many things, I could not focus a lot of time on this. More so, here we are talking about a PMR (secondary one) and SPM (secondary four) level. And, this is one of the toughest subject, the national language, Bahasa Malaysia. Even though the 'students' are my own nephews, I feel the responsibility as well as the pressure to teach them. Well, the session went on quite well. At least, I know what I was doing. I had given some pointers to them. They seem appreciative and are learning something. I'm glad even though I was slightly 'lost' when both seem to want my at...

I am holding back the letter. At least now I know my work is appreciated. I don't want to burn the bridges. Since he had amicably talked to me and even recognised my overwhelming workload, we sort of agree that future would be better. My dream is still to do something of my own. This would not change and I have even voiced out the need to have a balanced family and work life. Anyway, there's no real hurry. Another six months or a year in employment would mean more buffer for future. I felt a little more motivated now.

I could finally throw in my letter. Before throwing in, there were stress, frustrations and fatigue. After throwing the towel, there were relief, hopes but uncertainties await me. If I were to stay where I am, hopes to realise my potentials are unthinkable. I wasn't able to do this for the past 12 years. I was finally able to do it. Somehow, it wasn't easy typing the letter even though I was yearning for a break. Well, I got to be accountable to four (this is including myself) very important persons in my life. Though the path may be rough initially, but I am looking forward to better lives, maybe not in the very near future, but definitely it's not going to be distant. The future of my kids lie in my hands. I cannot fail this time.